Mrs. Ryan Earl Merriman

Fri, 14 Mar 2003 03:53:40 GMT

As Ryan stated in his journal.. I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, whom we have christened Ryan Earl Merriman Jr, at 8:23 PM on March 13th -laughs- you know what would have been really funny, and odd together, is if I'd have had my baby on Monday.. the 10th, becuase that was Ryan's birthday -laughs-

Anyways.. I'm off to spend time with my wonderful husband, and my beautiful baby boy. I'll post a picture of Ryan Jr. Later when I have the chance -smiles- Peace.

~*Stacie*~

Fri, 14 Mar 2003 00:52:41 GMT

I have not died, do not worry.. I am still alive and kicking, well, not kicking right now, laid up in a hospital bed, in labor is more like it. And becuase I didn't post this on his birthday...

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY RYAN EARL MERRIMAN! I LOVE YOU, AND OUR SOON TO BE BORN CHILD, MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF!

I am going to have my baby now.. so goodbye -laughs-

Fri, 17 Jan 2003 01:16:54 GMT

-cries- I haven't been around here in forever.. and where's that husband of mine?! I can not take care of this child by myself.... does anyone wanna come keep me company?

EM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RYAN GOSLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sun, 01 Sep 2002 12:08:24 GMT

So, the baby's fine, Ryan's been doing a good job of taking care of me since the hospital said I was okay to come home, but I've got to be careful about what I do.. ya know? I mean, getting into an accident is no pretty thing, but I'm happy our baby is okay. I don't know what I'd have done if I'd lost it.

Um.. I really don't know what else to say, I've just been spending alot of time in bed, and Ryan's been taking care of me like the good husband he is -smiles- So yeah...

Thu, 29 Aug 2002 13:21:22 GMT

-looks over at a sleeping ryan and sighs-

-gets up and gets dressed-

-writes a note to ryan-

Ryan, I love you. I had to get out of the house for a little bit. I feel the need to go shopping, or do something. I don't know. I didn't want to wake you though. I've got my cell if you need me. I'll talk to you later. Stacie

-places the note on the nightstand where Ryan'll see it when he wakes up and grabs the car keys-

-gets in the car and heads to the mall-

-goes thru the green light and gets hit by the idiot who decided to run the red light at the 4 way intersection-

Fri, 23 Aug 2002 21:52:35 GMT

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Stacie is a great wife, and a loving mother. Loves her husband and stepdaughter dearly. She doesn't let anything by her either, so be warned if you mess with her.
Strengths: Friendly, usually easy to please, great at teasing her husband in bed
Weaknesses: Can sometimes tease a little too much, very jealous
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Fri, 23 Aug 2002 20:18:56 GMT

I really fucking hate the disney channel! I HATE IT WITH A GOD DAMN PASSION! I did NOT want to see that damn movie AT ALL! The previews showed them nearly kissing, and that was enough to send me over the edge!

I turned on the disney channel at exactly 1:30pm *est time* to watch a favorite movie of mine starring the ever so talented Erik VonDetton, and much to my dismay, what should happen to start playing? Why, "A Ring Of Endless Light" the movie that STARS both Ryan and that whore Mischa who so kindly decided to start kissing my husband. Anyways, it started playing, not "Brink" but that. I was like.. WHAT THE FUCK?! First off, "A Ring of Endless Light" isn't supposed to PREMEIRE until tonight at 8pm *est*

That just made my whole day go from damn near close to great, to I don't want to look at Ryan or Mischa right now for that movie. Can't disney just keep with there like, no kissing in the majority of thier movies? Cuase I swear, everyone was kissing in that damn movie! UGH!

Well, that's my rant and rave for the day. I'm out!

Thu, 22 Aug 2002 12:44:58 GMT

I really should update more often, I know, but I really haven't had the time since Ry and I decided to work out our differences, and not a moment too soon either. Not even a few hours after we had decided to work things out, Chey was dropped of over at the house. I was a bit confused at first, until I was told it was cause Branden was in the hospital and not doing so well. Then yesterday, I find out he'd died.

Do you know how hard it is to look a little girl in the eyes, and told her Branden went up to heaven? She cried alot, but I can understand that. And it was soo sweet, she looked me in the eyes and told me at least he wasn't hurting anymore. I started crying right then.

I still feel so horrible that Branden really never got to experience a full life, a life in which he deserved to live. He was just too sweet, and I swear I'm going to miss him for lifetimes to come. And I know Chey and Dave will to.

Other than that, things have been going okay over in our household. Ryan's being sweeter than ever. And I seriously love that boy more than anything, that's why I came home, and told him I wanted this to work, and that just becuase he kissed another girl in our house, I wasn't going to stop loving him.

-stretches- Well, I'm starting to feel a bit sleep again, so I'm gonna try to go back to sleep. Love you all

-sigh-

Sun, 18 Aug 2002 14:02:23 GMT

I know I should update, but.. in all honesty, I really don't know what to update about. This weekend has gone by in a whirlwind, and altho I'm here, I feel like I've been watching my life thru the eyes of another. Someone on the outside looking in. I feel like I haven't been.. here.

All that plays over in my mind, is the image of those two on the floor... kissing. My husband, and another woman... kissing. Do you know how hurt that makes me feel? I feel like my hearts been ripped out and Ryan stomped all over it. In all honesty, if I wasn't.. with child I don't know what I'd have done. I mean, I guess I know how Dave must have felt, if he had any suspicion about Ryan and I, and now I feel horrible.

I don't know what to do anymore. I want to talk to him so bad, but yet, the thought of seeing him right now, makes me sick to my stomach. But yet, -sigh- Without him, I don't feel like I'm me. Nikki and Ryan G. have been soo wonderful with trying to make me happy, and yes, I love having them around. They're the greatest. And then of course I've started talking to Kevin Zegers, and if you don't know him, you should. I've made him his icons, along with Chad Murray, -laughs- I hope I spelled his name right. I've made some new friends, and they're great. They've kept me busy this weekend -laughs-

I do need to go home sometime. It's my home too, I just, don't know if I want to try to act like nothing happened in the living room when I go back, or what. -sigh- This is going to be a hard hard thing to handle. I need to get over this... Well, I'm going to go out for some breakfast, and some "me" time. Talk to you all later...

-growls-

Fri, 16 Aug 2002 21:04:10 GMT

I am at Yancy's house right now. I'm tempted to go over to Nikki's and stay with her tonight. Maybe get Ryan Gosling to come over. Him and I have been friends for a while now, and he's about the ONLY Ryan I can tolerate right now -glares-

So, yeah, I've packed a few of my bags, and I've got no intention on going home fora few days. Why, well, I'd rather not talk about it right now, but a message to the two people whom I hate more than anything right now.. THIS MEANS WAR!I will not tolerate that shit, especially not when it happened in MY home, and I don't give a damn what either of you have to say right now.

So yeah. That's about it. I'm furious, and I don't want to be around him... or her. Not at ALL!

OOC

Thu, 15 Aug 2002 14:23:03 GMT

If anyone gets the following message from anyone please be aware that it's NOT true! Thank you!

"Isaac Hanson (21), member of the pop trio Hanson, and Jonny Lang
(21), acclaimed guitarist, were involved in a severe automobile
accident late Monday night on their way back from a concert.
Authorities say a red SUV traveling at approximately forty miles an
hour sideswiped Hanson's Toyota 4-runner, causing the vehicle to spin
several times and land upside down in a ditch. Both men were rushed
to nearby Cedars-Sinai Hospital in Los Angeles where doctors
performed emergency surgery on Lang due to severe head trauma. Hanson
was rushed to the ICU, where he remains in critical condition. No
comments have been made by either family."

-stretches-

Mon, 12 Aug 2002 13:08:31 GMT

Well, this weekend had been eventful to say the least. Ryan and I made an appearance at Dave's little picnic on saturday. It was great seeing Chey and Brandon again. Even though they're not mine, I love them as if they were.

Chey got accepted to one of the best schools for gifted kids. I'm so proud of her, and from what Dave says, her little school girl outfit resembles that of the ones in Harry Potter, minus the capes. That's to Chey's fancy too, especially since she likes Harry Potter. And Brandon's doing well. He was accepted, but they're not letting him in til he's in remission. I do believe that's what Dave's said.

Anyways, I was doing some searching on the web -laughs- and I came across Ryan's new television show thing. -laughs- Veritas is what it's called, and his name's Nikko in the show. From what it says, he was kicked out of yet another boarding school, and was forced to go be with his dad, who's an archeologist. Forgive me if my spelling's not correct -laughs- I think it's going to be a cute show -grins- But then again, I may be biased since it is my husband we're talking about here.

Anyways, I'm off to go get some sleep. Ry's out of town for a few days. Something about looking at a script or what not. So it's all good. Gives me some time to get the house together. It looks like a pig stye, and I do need to go grocery shopping, and I never seem motivated with Ryan around the house. -laughs- So I'll talk to you all later.

Mon, 05 Aug 2002 15:18:01 GMT

Sometimes your world can be turned upside down in just an instance, and it makes you think about everything that's happened. Something like that happened today. I won't get into details, it's not my place to get into them. Not that much at least. What I can say is that I love Ryan, and if it takes every last breathe I have in my, I'm going to show him just how much he deserves me, even when he thinks he doesn't.

We've all made mistakes in our lives, but when we've got someone there besides us, that loves us, it helps make a world of difference, and thru everything he's going to go thru, I'm going to be there by his side. I love that man, and I don't care what anyone else may say.

No matter what he may do, what he may say.. I will always love that boy, and I know he's got some things he needs to work thru, and I'll be there, helping him along, as long as he'll let me. I love him, and don't even doubt that!

Mon, 05 Aug 2002 11:32:10 GMT

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I found this to be funny, yet true....

Mon, 05 Aug 2002 11:24:23 GMT

You definitely resemble the most creative and intricate video in the Hanson collection! You fear the thought of single file lines and cookie cutter fashion trends. You are your own person and damn proud! You tend to be a trend setter when it comes to general style, attitude and ideas because of your originality and confidence. You are willing to try almost anything and love to take huge risks in order to raise the bar in life. Sometimes you can be a little complicated but your openness and originality never fails to shine through! Some may call you 'weird'. We call you YOU! [www.taylorhanson.org]

-dies laughing-

Thu, 01 Aug 2002 20:00:13 GMT

I have come to a conclusion about my husband, and his line of work. -grins- All Rated R movies that he's in, which I have seen... it's only two.., are worthy of being watched. Today I had the enjoyment of watching "Just Looking" -dies- Oh lordy was that a good, funny movie. Ryan plays this boy, who's obsessed with trying to see people fucking. He's all into wanting to see people have sex, and that's all he does til the end of the movie, is try to catch people doing it. First his mom and new step dad, then his uncle and pregnant aunt, and then this bra model. -laughs- I won't spoil it for you all, but it's definately a funny movie to watch.

With that, I'm off to go sightseeing some more before we leave to go home tomorrow. From what I've seen of Italy, it's a beautiful place, but I can't wait to be back in the states. Talk to you all later.

~*Stace*~

-smiles-

Sun, 28 Jul 2002 19:21:46 GMT

Well, Ryan and I decided to start our honeymoon off earlier than we had originally planned, but it's all good. Last night we had a wonderful dinner with the recent newlyweds Noah and Joy. I love those two soo much, and they make the perfect couple.

-happy sigh- I love Ryan so much. You all just can't begin to understand what that boy means to me. He's so great. You all should IM him and love him when he's on, but not love him too much, then I might have to hurt you -laughs- -smiles inncoently-

Anyways, I think I'm going to crawl back into bed with my handsome husband, so yeah, I don't think you'll be getting another update from me until tomorrow. Luv you all. Take care now, buh bye.

-smiles-

Sat, 27 Jul 2002 17:21:20 GMT

I have married the king of disney movies. And that's not a bad thing. At least I know when our baby gets old enough, I can show her most of it's daddy's movies. Anyways, there's a point to this. Ry's got yet ANOTHER movie he's starting in on the disney channel, and it premieres next month. It's called "The Ring of Endless Light" So yes, as soon as I find out the exact date it's on, I'll be telling you all, but yeah, I expect you all to be watching it.

[[In other news, I don't know if I'll really be on until Monday. No, it's not becuase Madi won't be on til Monday. My pink eye's finally clearing up, but in it doing so, I've been really sick for the past 3 days, and it hasn't gotten better at all. So yeah, if you don't see me, it's cause I'm sick, but as soon as I'm feeling better, I'll be back and better than ever.Oh, Roxana, you're going to die -laughs-]]

Fri, 26 Jul 2002 12:58:31 GMT

Oh, and before I forget, I've got a new sn.. it's xStacieMerrimanx

-happy sigh-

Fri, 26 Jul 2002 11:53:14 GMT

I don't know what got into the first few days after our marriage, we had NEVER fought like that before, the few times we have gotten mad at each other. It was shocking, but I'm proud to say that it's all in the past now. We're happy as ever now.

It amazes me that he's gone from not acknowledging our baby, to being a walking talking information booth about it. Like, did you know, our baby is now 41 days old, and will be born on March 22? That's 19 days after my birthday. It's going to be born right inbetween Ry and my birthdays -laughs- It's 0 onces and .8 to .16 inches long right now.. -smiles- It makes me happy to see him so involved now.

He really completes everything about me, and I'm soo happy about it. And this baby, this baby is going to be apart of us, for as long as it lives, reminding me of my love for him. Our baby's going to turn out to be so beautiful. And it'll have more love than it knows what to do with.

-smiles- Well, that's really all I have to update about right now. Must go get ready to go to Joy's wedding. I'm a woman, it takes me forever -laughs-

-cries-

Wed, 24 Jul 2002 13:21:56 GMT

I, yes I, am a horrible person becuase I can't take a joke, and end up pushing my husband further and further away from me. -cries- I'm the one who can't take a joke, no matter how hurtful it may seem. I'm the one that's got to take things soo offensive, and get defensive about it, that I end up pushing the one that I love away from me. I'm the one that sitting here alone because I fucked up. I'm the one that wants him soo bad, but I just, I don't know. I'm scared. I'm having a fucking baby. Do you know how scary that is, to be 16, and realize that you're going to be in control of another human beings life? That for 9 months, I'm going to have a living thing growing inside of me, that's going to depend on me for years, INSIDE OF MY BODY?! I've tried to be strong about this, I've tried, and I just don't know what to do. Do you understand how big of an impact this has had on me? I've tried to be strong, especially when Ry's still shaken up over this baby, I have faith that together, we're going to make the best parents, but I still have doubts. Can I really take care of this baby, have it be dependant on me? I'm still just a kid. That's all I really am. I'm on my 2nd marraige. How many people can say they've been married twice by the time they were 16?! It's not something to be proud of. Yes, the first marriage never should have taken place.... but my marriage to Ryan, is not a mistake, we love each other. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm soo alone. I hate this, I hate this, I hate this. All I really want is Ryan, but he's upset with me now. And he's got every right to be.

How do I,
Get through one night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I need....
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?
And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?

[[Sorry Madd for today, I'll talk to you later if you get back on, if not, talk to you tomorrow. Kay?]]

WHERE'S THE LOVE?!

Wed, 24 Jul 2002 12:33:50 GMT

I hate fighting, but yet, I just love the fact that I can never say anything to him and not regret it as soon as it's out of my mouth. I can't stay mad at him, and when I say something in retaliation, I just want to jump on him and kiss him and say I'm sorry, but I try to stand my ground. I can't be some sappy person that can never stand up for herself when he pisses me off, even though he shouldn't. I have to stand my ground when he does something to piss me off.

-happy sigh-

I love being married to him tho. We're going on our second day as man and wife, and I really don't know what could be better. This boy completes me, and I'm soo happy to be officially able to say that he's mine, and no body else can have him! He really is my world, and as scary as that may sound to some, it's really quite wonderful. He's always there for me, taking care of me when I don't feel soo good, making me smile, just, loving me with everything that's in him.

We're going on our honeymoon on Monday. After Joy and Noah's wedding and all. We're going to Italy for a week -grins- I can't wait. Well, I'm off to go find some way of getting back at my husband. -snickers- So, I will talk to you all later!

day one of married life...

Tue, 23 Jul 2002 17:57:45 GMT

Well, today got off to a rocky start. We can officially say we've had our first married fight as a couple, and when we had it, we hadn't even been married for 24 hours yet. We got over our fight though, and we're happy as can be!

God, did I ever say how much I love this man? If not, I'm saying it now. Everything about Ryan makes me love him. I fall more inlove with him as each day passes, and I didn't even think that was possible. He's like, my air, I need him to survive. Pretty scary.. huh? -laughs-

Anyways, I'm off. We're off to go to the pool and lounge out in the sun. Talk to you all later.

-happy sigh-

Mon, 22 Jul 2002 18:56:46 GMT

We did it, we got married, and I am now Mrs. Ryan Earl Merriman. I really don't see why Ry's got such a thing against his middle name, but now Joy's going to call him Earl whenever she's around him -laughs-

I really don't know how today could get any better than it is already. It's like my life is complete in everyway. So much happened today, besides the wedding, that I'm thankful for.

I talked to Dave today. At first, I was afraid it was going to be another one of those, I hate you, you ruined my life kidna things, but thankfully, it wasn't, and we got alot acomplished in the short time we talked. I even got to talk to the kids, and I was shocked when I heard about Brandon having leukemia. The poor thing. Not expected to live past 5 -frowns-. Chey was all happy to talk to me, and then they went off to play, and Dave talked to me, and mentioned Joint Custody, only becuase I adore the kids as much as they adore me, and they need a mother figure in thier lives, and it made me overjoyed to hear about it. That's great too, becuase I'll get to see the kids, and I hope Ry doesn't get jealous or upset over this. Those kids really are angels, and now to find out that Brandon isn't going to live all that much longer, makes me want to only spoil his as rotten as I can while he's a live, and they're both just angels.. -nodding-

Anyways, yeah, I need to get back to the reception. We're having just so much fun. Thank you to all of you that was at the wedding today. It meant alot to me, and to Ryan.

-laughs-

Mon, 22 Jul 2002 13:56:29 GMT

For the sake of annoying Ryan, in a little over an hour, we will be:

MR AND MRS RYAN EARL MERRIMAN